I know that I have so many unfinished topics and stories on the blog. You all know from my first 5 months as the blogger that I don’t usually leave a story untold. I write today to express my frustration about not being able to be a completely open book. It is really a terrible feeling for me to experience. I know none of my readers are angry because of the many unfinished stories but it is really tough for me. My nature is to just be an open book so to hold back is very stressful for me.
All of that said, I am also smart enough to know that no one is going to protect me but me and I cannot disclose everything at this time. Although it is a silent battle, I cannot forget that I am indeed in the middle of a battle with a man who I do not recognize and I cannot predict.
The tax issue was addressed this weekend and it isn’t pretty. I got a single line, typed letter from Steve saying he will pay the IRS directly. That’s it. That is all he said. I have no idea what that means but will not concern myself with trying to decipher his code. I called in a favor to a dear friend who is a CPA (and one I’ve helped several times through the years with free legal advice–and isn’t that another great life lesson? Pay it forward people b/c it will come back to you tenfold. I could have been charged thousands for what my friend had to dig through this weekend and I was not charged) and while I certainly don’t like what I learned, knowledge is power. I know now what I am dealing with and will act accordingly. Forgive me for not being able to share details but I will eventually.
Even with this heaviness, it was a great weekend. Church was all about the fear we all have of “letting go.” Sometimes from basic material things and also the big stuff that holds us back. I was there in my marriage. I was so afraid of losing what I thought I had, what I had created as my reality that I actually ignored reality! The message is that letting go always leads to bigger and better blessings.