I am at a loss for words. I have to tell ya’ll, I have written this post, erased it, written it again, deleted it.. Ya’ll get the drift. This is not a feeling with which I’m accustomed. Usually, I’ve got too much to say and I have to tone it down a notch. Today, I find myself staring at a blinking cursor and it’s not that my mind is devoid of words it’s that there are so many words and thoughts and different directions of thoughts that I can’t quite pin anything coherent down. I’m sorry, ya’ll. This entire post may be hard to follow and rambling.
My mom was recently diagnosed with a rare form of cancer. Man, seeing that in black and white is unsettling. Anyway, all of my focus has been on that and not much else. I know that this blog is about debt and I’ve been trying really hard to write a post about our debt but I just can’t. I’m sorry.
We feel good about how early it was caught and her treatment will start soon. I feel like it’s important at this point to say something about my faith but I don’t really know what to say. I am a Christian. I believe that Jesus died for my sins and that there is a God in heaven that loves us. I can’t say that I belong to any certain religion. I grew up Catholic and my husband was raised by his Baptist minister grandfather. I think all religions have some merit but they also all have things that I don’t agree with. I am pretty sure I’m making a mess of this but ultimately the point I want to make is that prayer is very important to me and I believe in the power of it. I have felt the presence of God and I have no doubt that He is with myself and my family. We are scheduling all the appointments she needs to prepare her for treatment and I am praying my fool head off.
I also have another depressing thing to add. My husband has a coworker who recently lost her second baby. For some reason her body rejects the baby when she is almost through her pregnancy and the baby does not make it. This has happened to her twice and both times she has had to carry the baby to the end before they can take it. My heart breaks for her. His work took a collection up to help she and her husband with burial costs. We put in a $100. There are some things you just can’t budget for.
I’m sorry this has been so depressing and hopefully it’s not a bunch of gobbledygook. I am going to do my very best to get back to posting about our debt next Thursday. I hope you all are well.