I’ve been a little quiet lately. That usually means one of three things…
1.) I’ve been busy with work.
2.) I’m not feeling well.
3.) Something besides personal finance is on my mind.
This time, it’s all of the above.
I’ve been working later than normal hours at my regular job. It’s one of those periods where a whole bunch of work is put on my desk and once I get it done things will return to normal and I will even get to take a few hours here and there off. It’s almost like a little “crunch” time that happens every now and then.
I am also not feeling well. Our recent weather change from nice fall weather to snow (yes, there is snow on the ground now!) has made my sinuses flare up. That often leads to other problems and while it’s something that normally happens this time of year…it’s still not fun.
Lastly, there is something besides personal finance on my mind. This weekend, I am going to lock myself in my bedroom and only come out for bathroom trips. This little bit of self-imprisonment is for a reason. It’s the only way I think I can successfully quit the smoking habit.
I told my husband last night of my plans, and he’s already preparing himself. I’ve tried quitting before. I am a cigarette junkie and the nice person that I am is overtaken by someone that I don’t know. I am scared and I plan to sleep through as much of the weekend as I can to get through the initial physical withdrawals.
I’m not sure if this is going to work or not, but after being sick lately…I have to give it a shot. I’m tired of getting sicker than a non-smoker would and I want to be able to breathe normally. I’ve been a smoker for more than half of my life. Enough is enough.
I don’t know if I’ll be blogging much this weekend. I’m not sure exactly how I am going to feel and how much of anything I will want to do. I know I won’t be able to sleep through the entire weekend, so I may end up writing to keep my mind busy. I just don’t know. The longest I have been without a cigarette was for a day and that was because I was in the hospital and had no choice. I was searching for a place to smoke the minute they said I could walk around.
If I can make it through two days, that will be a huge accomplishment for me and it might be what I need to show myself that I can do this. I may be full of confidence when it comes to paying off debt, but when it comes to beating my addiction to cigarettes, my confidence shrivels down to a speck of dust. I don’t know if I can do it.
But I have to try.