I received some heartbreaking news on Friday. Someone I used to work with was in a horrible accident and she didn’t make it. The news of her passing took my breath away.
As a result, Friday ended up being a day in a complete blur. Between the extreme sadness that someone who brought so much joy to my life was now gone and the realization of how any minute your life change change like that, many tears were shed.
When I think of her, all I can think of is her laughing and lifting her head up and placing her hand on her stomach. Such a joy filled person who spread the joy to everyone around her.
This is not right. It HAS to be a joke. She can’t be gone. WAKE ME UP!!
I know it’s true, but part of me still doesn’t want to believe it. She was so full of life and so full of kindness. A horrible loss for her family and the community alike. She will be greatly missed.
Losing someone like that so suddenly, I really started to question things. Why the heck am I here worrying about debt? Why the heck do I care about saving money or retirement? Who knows if you will make it to retirement?
Part of me was thinking about racking up some more credit card debt and living life for the moment. Just go out and blow some money that we don’t have. Live life!
Then another part of me was thinking about selling every darn thing I own to pay off our debts as quickly as possible so we can spend a lot of money that we have to enjoy life.
Because we were already planning to have a garage sale on Saturday, I believe that helped me go with the latter thought. I started pulling even more things out to sell and we ended up making another $200. I’m not done yet, either. I have more to sell. In fact, there’s someone I know who really wants to buy our original Nintendo and games. I wasn’t going to sell it (who knows when I’ll feel like playing Mario Brothers, right?), but I think I’m going to give him a price. I haven’t played it in over 6 months anyway. Sell it and put the money towards our debt. Make our debt go bye-bye.
When it’s all said and done, you can’t take your possessions with you. They mean relatively little when you look at life as a whole. I almost wonder if I should write that as a little reminder to place in my wallet. That way I’ll always see it before I purchase something.
I probably won’t be writing the next few days. I need some time to collect my thoughts. Life sure is a roller coaster ride.