The events of the past week have taken a toll on me and I hit a low point yesterday. Sometimes, when it rains it pours and that has been what this past week has been like. I won’t bore you with the details right now, but along with grieving we will be dealing with a financial blow shortly. A one-two punch was more than I could handle.
Today when I woke up, I still felt a little depressed although the sleep did do me some good. Later in the day, I was outside smoking when an idea hit me like a freight train. An idea similar to this one had been floating around in my head for a while, but nothing as detailed as what hit me today. When I think about how my life is and how I want it to be, this idea can get me there. All of a sudden I had a huge smile on my face and I was singing along to tunes while working. That’s how I love to feel. Motivated… inspired… full of hope. It’s the best “high” you can get. Unfortunately, it wore off.
I’m still excited about my idea and I wrote it down on a piece of my son’s green construction paper so I won’t forget it. As I’m typing I’m glancing over at my scribbles. My “high” wore off because reality had set in and now I’m wondering where I’ll find the time to bring my idea to life.
That’s the thing. It seems like I have a million things I need to do and a million things I’d like to do. My idea can get me the time I need to be able to do the things I’d like to do. It can work and I know I can get it to work if only I had the time.
It is sort of like that saying…You need a car to get a job, but you need a job to buy a car.
How do you get by that? Honestly, at this point I’m not sure.
I need time to figure it out 😛