I’m Not Feeling Very Proud of Myself Right Now

A lot of stuff is going on right now, and I can’t seem to find the words to write it down but I am trying. In the meantime, I feel obligated to report something that happened yesterday that I am not very proud of.

I have been very aggressively paying extra money towards our debt and I really didn’t leave much room for other things until payday. This lead to a little disagreement between my husband and I (one of the things I am trying to write about).

Well, we went shopping yesterday and I’m not very happy to report this…but the credit card came out. Total bill – $104.00. It hurt like you wouldn’t believe to do it and I saw my past coming back to haunt me. I know after payday I will be able to pay it right back, but that hasn’t helped how I feel. I couldn’t even swipe it – I had my husband swipe his card on one of our joint accounts.

I’ll get over having to use it, I know I will. It’s just hard to have done it and hard to have to come on here and write it. I could try to justify the use many different ways, but I don’t want to.

As I often say many times, I just have to pick myself up and keep going. I can’t let one mistake derail the progress that has been made. Just learn from what happened and keep going.

Posted by Tricia on May 22, 2006 at 8:27 AM in Confessions, Credit Cards | 7 Comments »
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Michael responded:
Posted: May 22nd, 2006 at 9:34 am
Keep plugging, Tricia. We’ve all been there. The setbacks are pretty much a fact of life.
mapgirl responded:
Posted: May 22nd, 2006 at 10:56 am
Chin up! I had a set back this weekend that I’m not to proud of either. Wounds the pride, but sometimes putting on a happy face and perservering is the only way to make it through.
Kim responded:
Posted: May 22nd, 2006 at 1:34 pm
Add me to the “has setbacks” list! I take solace in the fact that my overall debt level is still going down and not up. That must mean that I am still doing something right!
Tricia responded:
Posted: May 22nd, 2006 at 1:59 pm
Thank you everyone
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