I have BIG goals this year. Big goals for my money, big goals for my business and big goals personally.
But I’m also really struggling emotionally with this jump back into corporate. And I know a lot of it is in my head. However, there have already been a couple of days where I questioned this decision. It’s not what I was told during the interview/wooing process. The red tape and restrictions are insane. The processes and procedures are inefficient and frankly super frustrating.
Seriously, there are people in charge and restricting technology access who have no idea how to use the technology. It makes absolutely no sense to me. I’m just not used to it. And it’s been really hard.
With that being said, I am taking advice of my boyfriend to just work on staying in my lane. Something, I am admittedly not good at. It’s just a different world then working with the decision maker and coming in as the expert.
With that being said, I have definitely sought comfort or been tempted to find comfort in “not so wise” decisions – eating, shopping, and most of all, avoiding things. None healthy or the right way to handle this.
I’m starting to use a couple of mantras I found online…
- Do I want this more than XYZ?
- Do I want this if it means I need to work out an extra day?
- Just get it over with and then you can XYZ!
These have helped. (I did find a little treat for myself though, just discovered $39ish dollars in Amazon rewards that can only be spent on Amazon, so the next time the urge hits, I can give in a little bit and buy something.)
And I am committed to sticking to this, working through the hard and the change BECAUSE I have big goals.
Please send me some good vibes as I adapt and learn to bite my tongue and just go with the flow.