I’ve never been one to be able to write very well about my feelings, especially when I’m a little depressed. Instead, I keep to myself and hold everything in. That’s not good to do, so I forced myself to write what I did the other day. I need to get it out, for it’s not good to keep things bottled in.
There have been a few times where there was a shadow of doubt looming above my head. The last few days, the shadow has been, well, huge. I think it was a lot of things coming at me at once and I just cracked. You obviously can’t see my face, but imagine someone with a very big smile upside down. Someone looking at the floor while walking, someone just energenic enough just to say hi and crack a little smile. That would have been me if you saw me on the street on Tuesday.
I’m sure anyone in debt can relate to that. Debt seems to be that hand on your shoulder pushing you down so you can’t stand up straight. It’s that weight that is keeping you from realizing your full potential. There’s tons of ways to describe it, I guess, but if you’ve been there I’m sure you understand the feeling.
Thank you to everyone that left a comment on yesterday’s post. They helped to make me feel better. That was one of my low points the other day, and I am sure there will be more. It’s only normal. I kept telling myself that the other day, and kept telling myself that I will feel better soon. I do feel better, and I’m sure the quickness of my recovery has to do with all of you.
That brings up a point about debt. Having financial troubles and being in debt can be so shameful, but tell someone about it. Have someone you can share with and don’t keep it all bottled in. Everyone needs someone to be there when you are down and out. It could be a friend, a spouse, message board buddies, or a support group. Just reach out and talk to someone, even if it is anonymous. Instead of having that hand on your shoulder pushing you down…you can have someone holding your arm and helping to hold you up.
Thank you to everyone for holding my arm and helping me back up 🙂