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Dealing with Guilt


When my husband turned 18, his parents took out credit in his name.  Their credit was in shambles and his was new but spotless.  They racked up $5,500 in credit card debt and $1,000 in cell phone bills.  My husband, wanting to help his struggling parents, paid the minimum payments for four years.  We married when he turned 22.  Suddenly we had rent, groceries, and utilities and he could no longer afford those minimum payments.  He asked his parents to start paying their debt.  A few days later, his father gave him a spreadsheet.  The spreadsheet outlined all the things they believed he owed them.  They decided he should have paid rent the day he turned 18 up until he moved out at 21.  They decided he should have paid a rental fee each time he borrowed their car and loads of other silly things they could think of.  Total everything up and not only did they not owe him, he owed THEM $1,000 by their estimation.  Not a single mention of the four years of minimum payments he had been paying for them or, crazy thing, the fact that rent or any of the other bogus charges were never discussed or agreed on.


That spreadsheet resulted in the biggest fight we’ve ever had in our marriage.  I declared it was hogwash and he said his parents had no money and the spreadsheet was what helped them sleep at night.  “We aren’t getting a dime from them anyway.  It’s water under the bridge.” (Before you roast him for saying that, remember, he was 22)


It took us four more years to pay that debt and some months, we couldn’t afford it at all.  My husband’s credit was completely destroyed.  Our home loan is in my name only because his credit was too terrible.  Our interest rate was insanely high because I didn’t make enough on my own for a decent rate.


It’s been nearly 20 years since this all happened.  We didn’t say a word to anyone in the family.  It was this weird secret my husband wanted to keep to protect his parents.  We thought our silence was OK.  It didn’t hurt anyone but us right?


I went to dinner with three of my sister-in-laws.  It was a great night, we all shared a bottle of wine and stories late into the night.  One of them is buying a house and we were lamenting about the process.  My husband and I had moved in with my parents for a short period to save a down payment and it was hard.  “At least they didn’t charge you back rent years later!” my sister-in-law said.  “Huh?” I asked.  “Oh!  Did I not tell you?!?  J’s mom and dad came after us for rent!” she exclaimed.  There was silence at the table.  “You too!?!” another sister-in-law exclaimed.  One by one, the stories came out.  His parents did the same thing to all their kids.  The weird secret we were all carrying.  My husband wasn’t the only one, he was just the first.


Later that night, I cried as I told my husband what happened.  We never said anything.  We didn’t protect his little brothers.  We just assumed it wouldn’t happen to anyone else but our silence hurt them.  Here’s the thing, I can be furious at his parents, and I am, but the weight of guilt that I’m now carrying is huge.  I’m furious at myself.


Money and family is a tough subject.  My husband has believed for years that he was protecting his parents’ reputation.  They were poor.  They needed money.  They didn’t know how else to get it.  It made sense…


Until we had kids.


“Chris, would you take out money in the names of our kids?  For any reason?  Would you watch them struggle under the weight of it?”  I asked.


He stared at the floor for a long time then answered, “I don’t think I could.”


It’s too late now.  All his siblings are grown.  All of us are adults with strong hands on our purse strings.  The secret is out.  We all know what happened.  It won’t happen again.  But it doesn’t fix my guilt.  I’m going to have to live with that.  I know my husband’s family isn’t the only one like this.  Perhaps if this happened to you, you’ll think about speaking up.  It could save a lot of hurt.

Saying No to Amazon Prime Days


Did you all survive Amazon Prime Days?? I was amazed at how pervasive this sale for a single store was! There were temptations to buy things we don’t need everywhere I looked. Friends and influencers alike on Instagram were all rattling off deals. I saw news headlines covering it and promoting the top steals. It’s the new Black Friday!

We did consider buying something for our business, so I got sucked into the site for a little while. The item we really needed wasn’t on sale, so I didn’t end up buying anything. But I felt myself getting weak. I started considering items for Christmas gifts just because they were on sale.

Prime Days is a prime (ha!) example of when stores make things sound urgent and scarce and talk you into spending money you didn’t plan to spend. They add countdowns, show your percent savings, and then—this kills me—they break it down into monthly payments. I was thiiiis close to making some impulse buys. Very crafty, Amazon.

Intentional Shopping

One nice thing about Prime Days, however, is if you’ve been wanting something and it’s in your budget, you can snag it at a great price. I respect that. I love a good deal. My sisters and I can’t even talk to each other without pointing out a recent deal we got.

But I hate it when I justify making a purchase just because it’s on a clearance rack. As I’ve been de-junking our house, donating, and selling things, I’ve realized how often we buy things we didn’t really want or need. As they say, all that clutter used to be money.

I’ve started keeping a running list on my phone of things we’re in the market for. I add things that I feel like we really need, and then I keep them on there for a while so I can (a) look for the best price for it and (b) see if I still want or need it after a few weeks. It’s amazing how time makes the heart grow less-fond.

Also, my brother-in-law recommended we try Honey, this extension on your browser that looks for coupon codes and low prices as you shop online. When I finally decide to make a purchase for the right reasons, it automatically applies them at checkout. It’s come in handy a few times already.

Seeing Clearly Despite the Marketing

A few years ago, I read that it helps your kids if you teach them how marketers advertise to them. So now sometimes when we see a billboard or a commercial, I’ll ask my kids, “What are they trying to sell you? What do they want you to do?” It’s been a good exercise for me too. The typical answer? They want you to want and buy something.

We run a business so I get that marketing is part of the gig. I worked on marketing teams when I was a copywriter. So I understand that marketing is how businesses grow.

But I’m trying to check my personal spending more. Am I buying something because I’m bored? Tired? Stressed? Or it just seems like a good deal? Do I really need this thing, or should I use what I have? Is this really something I want to take care of and add to our house?

The holidays are coming, so the marketers are going to work hard on us. I’m going to try to think more for myself and shop more wisely.